update

Hello all.

It has been a long time; I'm sorry. I have yet to start my treatment; I'm still on my vacation. I'm sitting in London listening to my family talk about the arrangements for my cousin's birthday. I'm so glad that I get to be here for it. She is turning 21, which in England isn't as much of a milestone as it is in the states, but it is a big deal because it is their last year of Uni and it sort of seems to mark their true adulthood or something - but in England you can drink at 16, so it isn't as much of a party-fest. Everyone is making a HUGE deal out of Gemma's birthday; it is so fun. I won't be here for the big party on Saturday, which sucks, but tomorrow is her actual birthday. We are going to go to dog races; it is going to be soooo fun. The booky that you place your bets with is called "CORAL," so I'm SOOO going to place a bet!

As my trip is coming to an end, I find myself getting very nervous. On the coach ride from Paris back to London yesterday, I was drilling my mom - asking her all sorts of questions about when she did her treatment a couple years ago. I want to prepare myself for what it is going to be like. I am trying to figure out what day of the week I should take my shot. My mom said she would take her shot Monday night and then Tuesday and Wednesday would be the worst day, sickness wise, and then Thursday and Friday would be a little better. She said the weekend would usually be alright and Monday would be pretty much 100%. So... I have class Tuesday night, so I think I am going to take my shots on Tuesday nights, so that I am good for class, and will be alright for Saturday, probably. I would like to be able to hang out with people on the weekend, at least some of it anyway. I also have to take pills everyday, which will also make me feel crummy - flu like- so ya, all my planning may be pointless. Who knows how all these meds will effect me. That is why I'm nervous. I wish I could see into the future and see how this all works out - if the treatment works and how it effects me... that would be ideal, hears to dreamin'!!!

Right now I'm just going to try and be happy for the last few days of my vacation. I will be in New York City this weekend... I'm going to watch Wicked; I can't wait! I'm just going to block out next Tuesday from my mind until it gets here. There is no need to worry while I'm having such a good time - I just need to be happy and have fun while I'm here with everyone and having such a good time.